ill always be ShyGay..

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Thunderstorm at work.

S&G today and it was not a good one.
Later in an hour or two will have to meet the director individually.
April doesnt look too good. I wonder how my holidays will be.
I am so stress and im trying to relax a bit.
Doing some changes with my projections.

I am managing alot of things this year. Hope everything will go well.
Ya Allah bantulah hamba mu ini.
I really need guidance from you.

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What is happening. I understand that you are going through stressful period. I am always here for you. Dont you feel that way?

Have i ever said you are not special. Have i ever demoralise you.
Tell me what do you want me to do. How can i be of help.

We ever talk about it before, i understand that the 'grass ouch thing' was so funny to you. But its just me. Why do you have to make fun of it. There is a limit. Its as though you dont like me being myself. I really want to be myself. Yes i am a noob, weird but does the whole world need to know.
Why dont you understand how i feel. Thats all im asking for. And because of this i dont deserve you? Why?

Im not living my life to hurt you or anybody. Im not here to ruin our relationship. I want to work towards something in life. Why it has to be so difficult....
Why do i make you sad.
Why do i make you sick of me.
Am i not worthy of you?

Have i not done anything good for you?
Why does mistakes can take over our love for each other?
Does that mean our love were never that strong?

At work. My dinner : Tuna Sandwich

It has been tough.
Is it wrong to live life the way we plan it.

I agree that every life has obstacles. Am i not handling it well.
Have always wanted to be your pillar of support.
Have always wanted to be the only special one in your life.

I want you as my best friend, lover and my husband.
I want a family of my own, with two beautiful twins.
I want a house.
I want a car.
I want an engagement ring.
I want a bigger bear than my current one.
I want to have alot of savings.

Are these too much?

I dislike vulgarities.
I dislike the smell and the sight of vomit.
I dislike chili.
I dislike to bathe at night.
hahaha i cant think of more as of now.
But ill update soon.

Best of April...
From my dear to me.....

Sunday football was disappointing. Kambings could do better than that.

Had dinner at RAMEN TEN at clementi new outlet. Haha i was so jakun. The sushi all around me. Feel like taking them all!! Wahaha
I love RAMEN TEN!!!!!!!!!!!! Me favourite.

Work week for me. Cant wait for next month! My niece and my holiday!!!

Alhamdulillah.

One loan approved.
I will work harder.
Savings for future sake.