SHE.HER

What should i do?

2011-02-22T16:44:00.002+08:00

Here is our dear baby at 32 weeks (8 months). How time flies.........

Going through this third trimester is not easy as i thought it should be. Now i am at my 33 weeks, just waiting for baby's arrival.

I have been feeling very sleepy, mentally and physically tired and drained. My body ache so much that i just have to stop at whatever i am doing that moment. Sleeping has been the biggest issue especially lately when i have been having a bad phlegmy dry cough! Tossing and turning trying to sleep, baby in tummy keep moving and i keep going to the toilet. It has been hard for me to breathe too. My left rib cage hurts badly as though its swell inside my body. My baby has been kicking and poking me hard everywhere.

At work has been stressful as there are too many expectations from the management and too many event preparation. Sometime i just choose to divert my attention to something else and i began to feel so lazy to do anything. Some people thought since im online on FB or i am playing with my phone, i am so free.. oh my how i wish i really am. Working long hours is dreadful and i just look forward to sleep when i am home.

My dear husband has help me a lot lately and i thank him for that. But sadly, i need more rest and i need a break. Now since the baby is arriving soon, i am so worried of my health, work and handling my child at the same time. Can i cope with it? Cause seriously i can't put off work just like that, i need to help my team.

Ok that is it for today..2 more hours and i am going home. I hope i can just sleep but nah... that won't happen.

CNY break

2011-02-10T11:48:00.007+08:00

This year CNY break was long and haha never enough. I need more rest :P

Eve of CNY, no work. We went out early morning to meet our client and pass them the finished work. We were glad our client love the photos. Alhamdulillah.
In the afternoon, meet my dearest best friend, Ain at NTUC fair price extra JP to shop for baby's stuff.. luckily i prepared the shopping list!

It was sure fun cause i rarely meet Ain you see. Guess what shopping can be really tiring.
When we got home, we do a bit of clearing and straight went to bed!!

Thurs 3rd, we went out shopping at IKEA!!! Wohoo so long never go there... I so love the place!!!

We bought a black & gray cupboard, window blind, baby's blanket, study lamp and storage for clothes. Send for delivery and i cant wait for it to arrive this SUNDAY!!!!!
Our room surely there will be lots of black and grey!! (haha macam dull gitu kan?)

After our IKEA trip, met Hudakim, Amin, Hanis, Zainul, Firul and Nuurul at Cuppage, somerset for a karaoke session. It has been so long we had one. We sure enjoyed ourselves! Ending of with supper and for the first time i ordered Mee hoon TOM YUM! Me? Tom yum? Sure or not?
hahahaha it was indeed spicy but don't know lah i just force myself to eat it.. It's nice anyway..

Friday 4th, a day with JJC gangs!!!!!!

Picnic cum BBQ organised by SHAFA, AZMAN and HANI.
It sure went well! Thumbs up and Good job guys!!!
We played Taboo throughout the day. Rahman and i fly my pretty kite..keke
Ate delicious bbq food and lastly enjoyed the breezy cooling weather!!!!!
So lucky not raining..phew.....

I am happy that Rozie, Azhari, Shahid and Shafa get to feel our baby's movement!
I am glad they don't mind touching my tummy.. so cool to have an easy-going Hubby!
BABY, many people really cannot wait to meet u especially your Irritating-Crazy Parents!! haha

Saturday 5th, slacking day!!!

I stayed home whole day and practically sleeping..haha
Rahman went out at night to Johor Bahru and he gets to eat Satay..YUM YUM.
Too bad i never get to taste it.
That day, i had a lot of cramps though.. so from 8pm to 6am, i couldn't sleep. So damn tired!!
Good thing i get to watch lots of late night shows on the TV. Thanks TCS 5.
But seriously can you stop showing the advertisement on Incredible Tales!! I hate it!!! Especially when i am freaking alone at home!!!!!

Sunday 6th, CNY visit to my ceo's place, Mr Andy Ong and then in the afternoon went out with my Family for Lunch.

Andy's place had a nice view! Rahman love it..
His place is really for bachelor though...
Got a red packet on that day.. yeah!

Met my family at Marina Square.. we were having problem of choosing the place to have for our lunch! LOL! Whose fault is it? Haha my MUM lah... she wants to have soup.
First we were looking at Fish Market then Breeks. My Dad bingit why not go food court! Semua disagree cause we come all the way to Marina, tak kan makan kat food court. Aiyoyoyo!

My sis decided on Pizza Hut and during that time i saw Tambuah Mas Indonesian Restaurant on the other side of where we were standing, Mak come come we go eat there k? All agreed!!

Finally we get to eat!!! Lapar seh!!!

Dani is so big now and i love him so much!!!
Happy for you lah Nonoi, you got a bright and smart kid there... :D
I really love to see when Rahman layan him that day..
That Sunday, Dani seems to prefer Rahman than the rest of us. LOL

Went home early that day in the evening... wahaha guess what!
We were tired again! Sleep after our dinner at Mr Prata.
Oh my.. i wonder how we will be when our child arrives.. (??????????????)

Sad news!

2011-01-17T14:54:00.002+08:00

I am so sad..
We really have to cherish our love ones...

Even so i don't really know them, i can tell you they are super lovely couple!
Ya allah, please take care of their family.

I really cannot imagine losing my husband.

What have i been up to?

2011-01-15T12:06:00.002+08:00

1 whole week has been down with flu, fever and dry cough. Now feeling much2 better even so i still can't run away from our dusty room. I tell you however we kept it clean, it will just be dusty again.
Room is in a mess because of me, cause right after work i just want to sleep. Folded clothes and papers all over. Messy Messy Messy....

Last month, the store room is half empty from a lot of nonsense stuff. It is much more spacious now thanks to my Mr Strong and oh ya not forgetting Hamsem.

Last week, my parents bought us new baby things like bottles n clothes. Mum wants Rahman to bring those things to welcome baby on his/her first day. I am glad we do not need to buy lots of stuff as nonoi gave us dani's old clothes.. Thanks noi! Really appreciate it.. Will be taking the pram from her too. Sorry Dani, you big boy already lah. Soon you gonna have a friend to play with..must be nice nice k... haha

Next month need to buy pampers etc... so many things need to prepare. Rahman need to put the baby cot in the hall already.

Anyway im now at my 28th weeks.. so anytime in feb, march or april baby will come out. Praying that baby will come out in March or April cause mummy here has lots of unfinish work to do.. I am so worried!

Baby please pray too that by the time you come out, Daddy already found a good job and hopefully get his driving license too.. :D

Then everything will just be perfect...

I am prepared that once i deliver, i still need to work during my maternity leave.. i cant leave my work team alone just like that. I really understand i am new in the company, so i cant be happily ignoring my work. Easier said than done..i hope i get my work confirmation soon though..

God please help my family...

How can i forgot to share about this!!!!!

2010-12-22T16:48:00.003+08:00

Guess what!

My dearest irritating Husband pass his exams!!!!!

Finally he graduate!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

His convo would be in July 2011 if i am not wrong..

Anyways congrats!

I love you very much...........Baby and i are so proud of you!
All the struggle you went through was worth it!

Life Updates!

2010-12-22T14:03:00.007+08:00

It has been a long time i blogged. Here are updates on my life. :)
I got married on 28/2/2010 to my dream guy hahaha. He is Mr Jack Rahman.

Well nothing fancy about our wedding but i am blessed to be married.
Thanks to my friends who came and help. I really appreciate it so much.
We went for our Honeymoon to Tioman. It was lovely and we sure had lots of fun!

Lots of ups and downs throughout our marriage life but somehow we manage to pull through.
Good and worrying news came in, i got pregnant and its God's will for me to have a baby.
My normal check up scans b4 i got pregnant wasn't a good one. Sadly my womb is shrinking. So doctor advice us to get a baby as soon as we can. However we still do not want to plan for one as we are not really ready, both financially and mentally.

16 August 2010, i was not feeling too well. I decided to take the test and we are really shocked and surprised! Turns out i'm pregnant.

So many things running through our mind. Well we can only pray and hope for the best!

My first trimester falls on the fasting month, so wasn't happy with that. I never missed my fast before. So how does it feel? Terrible! I cried almost every night. I was already 5 weeks pregnant and everyday waking up in cold sweat, couldn't find the right sleeping position, headache, nausea and stomach bloated! I don't even feel like going to work!

My intakes were only plain water, bread and biscuits. I puked almost everyday. It can be morning or even at night. Migraine will kick in around evening. Oh my oh my...

Here are my scans,

5 weeks

12 weeks

22 weeks

Today my baby is at his/her 24 weeks (6 months). The baby grow so fast!

And this is how i look, (As usual Mr Jack calls me FAT every single day!!! GRRR)

17 weeks

24 weeks

Now at 24 weeks, my diet are getting my better. However still vomit sometimes.
Baby has been kicking and punching my tummy since my 5th month... Sometime it can be very painful..

You guys must be wondering about the gender right???
hahaha we don't know either. Do wait for the baby in APRIL ya!!!!

Ok next last scan is on my 32 weeks (8 months) on 15 Feb.... Hope the baby is doing well!

Guess what i am now working at a new place. I am working as a Business Executive in ERC Institute at Bugis Campus. Well what can i say about working here?

So far i am happy cause i get to take up new sets of challenges. I learn a lot these past few months.. and i love my colleagues! They are lovely people. Hope to get to know them better.

ERCI had their DnD trip to Vietnam. I joined them too. Vietnam is a lovely place and i am really glad that baby and i experience it. Here are some pictures of vietnam,

Ok guys, see you at the next post!

2920* Days of Rahman and Shyairah

2009-09-30T15:23:00.007+08:00

The film tells a story of the relationship between a woman, Summer (Deschanel), who doesn't believe in true love and a man, Tom (Gordon-Levitt), described as a hopeless romantic, who falls in love with her. When Tom is blindsided after his girlfriend Summer dumps him, he shifts back and forth through various periods of their 500 days 'together' to try to figure out where things went wrong. His reflections ultimately lead him to finally rediscover his true passions in life.

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21st Sept 2009- We bought 500 Days of Summer music soundtrack. Entered a lucky draw.
24th Sept 2009 (My BIRTHDAY)- Got a call from HMV. We won ourselves a pair of preview tix of her latest movie, 500 Days of Summer.
29th Sept 2009- We are long time fans of Zooey Deschanel. Its not too often can see our fave actress and singer on the BIG SCREEN, so we really wanted to go see it. So here we come.......

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and this is from Hammie to Faggie.........

* and still counting
Number an approximation

A BIG THANK YOU FROM FAGGIE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Did not know that you can be so ROMANTIC!!!! :)
I LOVE YOU

Berdua

2009-09-15T11:40:00.006+08:00

Sentiasa berdua
Hujan atau panas
Taufan atau ribut

Aku heran atas setiap bencana yang melanda
Kini padahnya agar sukar diubati
Pahitnya rasanya
Tersiksa kedua-duanya

Apakah ini satu ujian buat kami
Hingga membuat kami menuduh sesama
Hingga membuat kami kesal hidup bersama
Aku mohon bantulah kami

Bagaimana mengatasi masalah ini?

Kami hanya manusia biasa
Banyak perbezaan dalam diri
Itu bukan satu halangan buat kita
Malah itulah kekuatan kami

2009-09-13T13:11:00.002+08:00

I try my very best to help with the house work. A lot need to be done.....
I really don't want to think what is going to happen tmr.

Anyway mak wants to make me happy. Today we will make M&M cookies! (hope it turn out ok lah eh..)

See u again bloggie!

2009-09-12T14:27:00.000+08:00

I CANT STAND THE PAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!
The headache is killing me!!!!!!!
I got datelines... please help me.
I am at work now. I need to clear my work and pass everything to Chris and Rohai by today.
I need to get myself far away from work ( but i dont think that is possible at all, Time is money! ).
I feel so weak, lazy and my body is heavy like hell!

2009-09-12T00:05:00.002+08:00

I really do not know how to describe the pain that i am having.
I just hope everything goes well on Monday.

There are a lot of things i am worry about and i need to make sure everyday i complete my tasks.
I can be very blur and blunder at times..and i know i can be the cause of many problems. Sigh.
Am i that unlucky?

I have been feeling very lethargic and i just cant stop thinking. I want to explode!
What should i do next? What has to be done?
I am really not looking forward to anything now.
What is there for me? really..........

2009-09-03T10:25:00.003+08:00

Finally blogger is back to normal. haha ( BUT I CAN'T STILL UPLOAD THE PICS )

Last Sunday Kelvin, Rahman and I went to west coast for KITE FLYING DAY!
I was basically looking towards it even before but as usual Sunday is a football day so i know we are not gonna attend it at all. Unfortunately it was a raining day, so NO football. Only for that day i was happy lah at least got something else to do... kwang2.

I was enjoying myself and i believe Rahman and Kelvin did too..
I love this kind of activity where family and friends get together, having a good quality time.

Yesterday after work, Rahman treat me to a movie! I was so happy. It has been a long time....
We watched The Proposal. We agreed that a lot of expected scenes. We still prefer Music and Lyrics. Nevertheless its funny and we like it. We rate it 3/5.

Fasting is going on well. Just feeling tired cause work is piling up.
Hari Raya is coming. Cant wait to meet my cousins and of course not forgetting
NONOI, MAZLAN and DANI!!!!
This year baju raya: Mum and Dad ( RED) Athi and I ( Orange )

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Very soon its gonna be 2010. There will be alot of things going to happen next year.
-June/July
-August
-Sept
Rahman, are you up for it? ('',)

2009-08-25T11:15:00.001+08:00

Life is tough. Always will be tough.
How much we have plan, it might not be as smooth as it could be.
I am strong when i have him with me.
At least i have someone to go through this life with me.
Of course not forgetting his life. :)

I need to be disciplined. Really and please be Shyairah.
We are counting on you.

Mission:

1) Making sure Jack finish his sch without any worries.
2) Need to make sure our savings is always growing.
3) Refrain from spending unless its necessary.
4) Ensure that we are financially stable before marriage.
5) We are not that worried of House or even to spend for our marriage. We live simple and we want to stay with our love ones. :)
But we just want to make sure that we can live everyday spending time taking photographs, craft new toys, do some artwork, play football, create new songs and have our mini jamming room . All these needs money.

& We want to eat good food too!!

2009-08-20T14:37:00.005+08:00

Girls love to talk. Boys love to play
Woman love to chat. Man love to do activities

I guess this is how it works. :)

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The National Day celebration was fun.
Thanks to our friends (Huda, Mus and Firul) who have plan the activities.
From the Hiking at MacRitchie, Swimming at East Coast and finally the lovely fireworks at City Hall!!

Md Dani is 3 months old!! I miss you cutie pie....

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I am excited. Can't wait for tomorrow and the day after!!
Friday, Mus giving us the only opportunity in our life.. Singapore Flyer babe!!
Saturday, first day of FASTING!!!
Even so Sat and Sun i am working. I am glad Rahman is there with me.
That will be enough to boost my confidence.
and Rohai, i am counting on you too ya!!
Oh ya and good luck to Chris.. :P
I am so happy he wants to fast along with us.
He said he will eat as much at night and early morning and buy tea before work.
KEKE cute right?

2009-08-05T14:32:00.004+08:00

Fabric Of My Life (Our Love Story)

2009-08-05T10:49:00.005+08:00

We are talking about 8 years and i believe there are something that makes us strong.

I cant keep lying to you or to myself anymore.
I am vulnerable. I am so damn weak sometimes.
I can't seem to deal with it well sometimes.
I think i am adapting but sometime i can't.
Of course i should not stop trying but we need to do it together.

I know you have drill it in me.
I have been reading our past discussion and i totally agree with you.
But i don't think we should live like this forever.
I know why you have to resort to this.
You did give me chances but i did not comply and did not listen. I was naive and stubborn.
You are a good person sayang. Everybody knows that.

I know you are the one for me. How i know?

I cant see you with other women, i will be jealous.
I want to have kids with you. Want them to have your teeth, your humor, your brain....
I want to live our life not others.

So maybe we should sit down again.
Iron out our differences.
Understanding our partner's behaviour is pivotal.
Having patience is essence.

Then we can decide what to do next. :)

2009-08-03T11:00:00.001+08:00

Everyone is hurt.
Life still goes on.
A new month. Just work with what we have.

Looking forward to this weekend.

But first, hopefully Friday's result is good.
I have made up my mind. I want to have a child very soon.
I don't want anymore regrets.
But of course, $$$$$$$$$. Saving up.

Friday evening, looking forward to see my Bro in law, SIS and DANI!!!

Then SUNDAY, the outing with Rahman,Kelvin, Mus, Huda and Firul.
Hmmm i would want to make National Day gift for them. Insyallah.
Or maybe masak... picnic ke.

Oh ya and Sunday 9 AUgust 09 National day is also my BRO in LAW and SIS wedding anniversary!!!!!!!!!

2009-08-01T14:28:00.003+08:00

I came across this yest.
Well i am not looking at this cause i want to turn myself in to Christianity. :)
I want to relate HISTORY with LIFE.
Is History important?
We will figure it out ya...
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What Is Life All About?
Get Ready For The Truth!
Finally It Makes Sense!
http://www.what-is-life-all-about.com/

Is this all there is to life? If not, do our present actions affect our future existence? You can know the truth about your existence and be very confident in that knowledge.

About 103 Billion people (estimates range from 90 to 116 Billion) have lived on earth and in 2009 about 6.7 Billion people inhabit planet earth. Thus, about 6.5% of the people who have ever lived are alive on earth today. Are the rest, about 96.3 Billion out of existence or still in existence? The one certainty of our existence is death and it is the reason you should find out the meaning of your existence. It might be very important. There seems to be a very strong belief that no one knows the truth and in fact, that it is unknowable. The curves below are for reference and provide some interesting information regarding our existence. The subject of population is also linked from the navigation bar, "Truth In Religion" where worldwide religious population distributions are discussed. Although 98% of the material at this site deals with the purpose of man's existence some associated things like population point to the enormity of getting it right.

Can I truly understand my purpose and the purpose of all humankind and then, if necessary how to be successful? Why do not all people understand the meaning of their existence?

Yes, you absolutely can understand the purpose for your existence. The most significant reason few understand life's meaning is the long history of religious deception. That history of deception has resulted in the formation of hundreds of conflicting religions. Today it must seem too complicated to unravel and most people do not even know there is a problem. We suffer today economically as the result of many greedy, selfish persons but religiously we remain in the dark because of a history of self-serving people but in the religious case, we are often not aware of the peril.

The Truth

The truth is not complicated but what we have as commonplace today is extremely complex and problematic. I am strongly suggesting you can know the truth about existence in a very evidential way. One of the most significant reasons you may not know it is because of religion. You may be an atheist or agnostic but religion has influenced you to be of those beliefs.

Convincing Arguments

There are convincing arguments for every doctrine and frequently even the most inconceivable or bizarre teachings can provide convincing arguments. Yet by following a few simple rules it can be relatively easy to distinguish truth. Nonetheless,this can be a considerable challenge, more so if you have been efficiently indoctrinated. There are also many other types of barriers standing between you and the truth. Religion has certainly constructed many of these obstructions but some are very personal. Many who passionately believe they have the truth have been effectively mislead. Strangely, “born again Christians” are among the most certain of their belief and yet one of the most clearly deceived.

Evidence

You should not believe anything religiously without evidence. Indeed the evidence provided in this material will vary from undeniable to just the apparent logical conclusion from good information, data. In the end, the reason you will be convinced of life’s purpose is simply that EVERYTHING fits, holds together and makes perfect sense. There is an enormous difference between truth and error.

Faith

There is an essential element of faith but never blind faith. I am just another person you should not believe. I honestly think this material provides the correct understanding of life. Yet your faith must not be in any person. There is truth, there is error, and you can make good judgments simply by having a good heart and a love of the truth.

Obstacles to Truth

We often do not have the truth because we live in a world confused by religion, media and our strong desire to possess so much of what seems delightful. The subject of life’s purpose is near the last thing that will receive our attention. This material provides help in overcoming obstacles that might be keeping you from the truth. One very general, significant obstacle in today's world is simply the popular belief that no one possesses the truth.

Humanism

Today our society is very humanistic. Indeed most of religion closely examined is also humanistic in that their concerns for a person’s feelings dominate over spiritual issues. Therefore, there is a strong focus on activities, support programs relative to resolving, satisfying human problems. So a church home can be very fulfilling, very beneficial in meeting the social needs of its members. In a sense, religion has come full circle over the last 2000 years changing from a small truth and spiritually focused local church to a hierarchical, rule making, paranoid, cruel organization to creature comfort facilities with rules to satisfy the members. Now is that what life is all about? Do today’s religions provide physical but not spiritual solutions? Spiritual solutions are truthful solutions if they have any meaning. Thus, religion provides a social service and actually, in that context many, many people are more comfortable with “social” religion. Many substantial religions like Buddhism and Islam are much more demanding yet generate tremendous dedication despite the limitations on their members. The truth about life brings clarification to the many complexities we see in religion.

Commitment

I promise you this material is not the product of some religious zealot with all the associated ramblings but of someone interested in finding the truth about life and then helping others. I do not mean helping others to believe as I do but to understand the long history of deception while presenting something that makes “perfect” sense and provides tremendous value. In addition to this website, there is a new book titled, “What Is Life All About?” which extensively, systematically provides the truth about life. Eventually, I will provide much of that information on this website. If you look at the "Meaning of Life" navigation bar, there is detailed information regarding the book such as the table of contents and some portion of various chapters. This book covers a great deal of material but I will be diligent to make much of that information available on this site albeit necessarily in a somewhat different format.

Expounding on the promise

I promised not be fanatical but honest, fair, logical but I also promise there will be many things that will surprise you, even profoundly amaze you and most importantly can assist you in having a successful end to your life which translates to a successful beginning to your next life. Yet you may not even believe there is anything after this life – just nothing, it is all over. I most humbly suggest you may not remain in that position if you have an open mind and indeed desire THE TRUTH about life. It would be unfair of me be closed-minded so I am ready to admit I was wrong on this or that. It is the necessary essence of a truth seeker.

Atheists and Agnostics

The following quotes represent some of the many famous people who have supported Atheism and/or Agnosticism. I randomly selected a few. Some were solid devotees of Atheism while others were uncertain or lacking evidence and prefer the title Agnostic.

From the extreme Atheist to the moderates there is a common thread among Atheists and Agnostics. They were angry at religion and in general, a great deal of their anger would appear to be reasonable.

Root Cause Analysis of Religious History

"What Is Life is All About?" does something that potentially could have changed the view of many who advocated these “no-God” positions. One reason this may be possible is very simply these individuals or groups did not do a root cause analysis on the subject of religion. You can see from some their quotes (and I have read hundreds of similar quotes) that there is a critical emphasis on certain vicious actions of religious groups in terms of cruelty, supremacy, ridiculous doctrines, mysticism, complication and just many disturbing practices. Also in the other direction the beauty and simplicity of the truth was seldom if ever taught except in a weak, superficial and secondary manner.

What many atheists, agnostics and many others have missed

Your conclusions can be no better than your assumptions and certain of the Atheist, Agnostic fundamental assumptions are incorrect. One of the important incorrect assumptions was thinking the things they observed regarding religion had something to do with God. As I have read the life’s of many of the "famous" Atheists and Agnostics there is an amazing desire to find that God does exist but there were all these obstacles and again the most significant ones were religious behavior, the rules of God, the severity of God and for many scientists there was not sufficient scientific evidence. You will see in many cases there is not much difference in atheists, agnostics and many of the people claiming allegiance to God.

2009-07-24T01:40:00.002+08:00

Its time for me to sleep but i just cant.
Worried about tomorrow. Worried about the day after. Worried about the future.
What should i do?

Hammie and i are tired.
We need rest.
Not rest when you're sick.
But rest whenever.

We have a major prob. We faced it before.
Can we do it again this time?
What do you think Hammie?

I have been on sick leave. Going back to work tmr.
Heard there are a lot of changes going on.
I hope i am up for it.

BREATHE IN!!!
and here i come.... Good night everyone. Miss you Hammie.

2009-06-12T15:51:00.003+08:00

To those who are married, .. Not married .. and soon to be married
MARRIAGE ( found in an email )

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and
said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I
observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what
I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks
and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each
other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to
our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had
lost my heart to Dew. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that
she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.

She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten
years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted
time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I
loved Dew so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what
I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The
idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer
and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at
the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep
very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Dew.

When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not
care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want
anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce.
She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a
life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a
month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall
how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.

She requested that everyday for the month's duration I carry her out of our
bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just
to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Dew about my wife's divorce conditions.... She laughed loudly and
thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face
the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was
explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both
appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his
arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting
room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She
closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I
nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to
wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my
chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't
looked at this woman carefully for a long time.... I realized she was not
young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying!
Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had
done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy
returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.

On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was
growing again. I didn't tell Dew about this. It became easier to carry her
as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses
but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have
grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the
reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her
heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mum out. To
him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part
of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him
tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind
at this last minute... I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom,
through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly
and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in
my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her
tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy.

I drove to office..... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the
door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind... I walked
upstairs. Dew opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I do not want
the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a
fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I won't
divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value
the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other any more.
Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am
supposed to hold her until death do us apart.

Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the
door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife.
The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll
carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run
up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead. I know how her heart
could not bear to hear my last words now. I still carried her, my last
one...this time with my wreatched heart.

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It
is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank,
blah..blah..blah. These create an environment conducive for happiness but
cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend
and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a
real happy marriage!

If you don't share this, nothing will happen to you.

If you do, you just might save a marriage.

2009-05-04T18:23:00.002+08:00

So hard to predict but nevertheless life still goes on.
Look forward and hope for the best.
It can either be good or bad, just choose the best way to overcome it.

An Adventure.

*I took over for a day as a Teacher in Ngee Ann Sec. How was it?
Well i love it. I enjoyed it.
and the kids can really be very irritating!!!!!!!!!
Why is your name Ms Shy?
Why are you so short?
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*S&S pte ltd ( Salleh and Shy pte ltd)
What do we do? Well we sew mattress...wahaha
How did it happen?
My dad and i together we figure out how to cut out the mattress as it was too big for the cot.
So we did the measuring,cutting and sewing together.
Dad tought me how to sew using the machine and hand sew as well.
I can get so excited over all these!!!!
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* Rahman has been praising me about my photos that i took on friday and sunday football.
Cant wait to have a look at them. He is editing it at the moment though.
Wait ya... hehe
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* Oh ya Mus Birthday and NAD-RAHMAN C4-FARZI Birthday!!
Happy Birthday guys!!!!!!
You are never too old for anything!!!
Enjoy yourself to the fullest!!
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* Wolverine Movie. Just AWESOME!
Do watch it. Rating 8/10.
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* Got our FILMS!!! check them out at rahman's blog. www.jackrahmansparrow.blogspot.com
Damn cool.. Look at effects. 3 pics in one...
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Lastly coming soon,

Aunt's wedding!
My nephew!
Holiday!
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2009-04-28T20:48:00.002+08:00

ill always be ShyGay..

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2009-04-28T14:46:00.004+08:00

Thunderstorm at work.

S&G today and it was not a good one.
Later in an hour or two will have to meet the director individually.
April doesnt look too good. I wonder how my holidays will be.
I am so stress and im trying to relax a bit.
Doing some changes with my projections.

I am managing alot of things this year. Hope everything will go well.
Ya Allah bantulah hamba mu ini.
I really need guidance from you.

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2009-04-28T11:17:00.003+08:00

What is happening. I understand that you are going through stressful period. I am always here for you. Dont you feel that way?

Have i ever said you are not special. Have i ever demoralise you.
Tell me what do you want me to do. How can i be of help.

We ever talk about it before, i understand that the 'grass ouch thing' was so funny to you. But its just me. Why do you have to make fun of it. There is a limit. Its as though you dont like me being myself. I really want to be myself. Yes i am a noob, weird but does the whole world need to know.
Why dont you understand how i feel. Thats all im asking for. And because of this i dont deserve you? Why?

Im not living my life to hurt you or anybody. Im not here to ruin our relationship. I want to work towards something in life. Why it has to be so difficult....
Why do i make you sad.
Why do i make you sick of me.
Am i not worthy of you?

Have i not done anything good for you?
Why does mistakes can take over our love for each other?
Does that mean our love were never that strong?

2009-04-27T19:59:00.002+08:00

At work. My dinner : Tuna Sandwich

It has been tough.
Is it wrong to live life the way we plan it.

I agree that every life has obstacles. Am i not handling it well.
Have always wanted to be your pillar of support.
Have always wanted to be the only special one in your life.

I want you as my best friend, lover and my husband.
I want a family of my own, with two beautiful twins.
I want a house.
I want a car.
I want an engagement ring.
I want a bigger bear than my current one.
I want to have alot of savings.

Are these too much?

I dislike vulgarities.
I dislike the smell and the sight of vomit.
I dislike chili.
I dislike to bathe at night.
hahaha i cant think of more as of now.
But ill update soon.

2009-04-23T01:31:00.004+08:00

Best of April...
From my dear to me.....

2009-04-14T11:54:00.003+08:00

Sunday football was disappointing. Kambings could do better than that.

Had dinner at RAMEN TEN at clementi new outlet. Haha i was so jakun. The sushi all around me. Feel like taking them all!! Wahaha
I love RAMEN TEN!!!!!!!!!!!! Me favourite.

Work week for me. Cant wait for next month! My niece and my holiday!!!

2009-04-07T13:20:00.001+08:00

Alhamdulillah.

One loan approved.
I will work harder.
Savings for future sake.

2009-03-30T10:51:00.002+08:00

Updates.

At work now.
Whats happening? A lot

-Ppl coming for interview. My team we are looking for surveyors.

-Im suppose to have exam today. Our class postponed it to next wed 8th April.

-Projection for April need to be up

-I need to make a website for my team
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At home:

- Dad is selling the house

- Noi is giving birth soon. Need to do alot of shopping.

- Athi is doing well. Getting better. I'm happy for her. Hope she gets YUPI!! hehe
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Me:

- I guess its me who needs to change

- I need you.
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2009-03-30T06:54:00.002+08:00

Soul searching

What did i do that made you this way?
What did i do to us?

Possible reason

1) During that time when i was angry, i said something stupid that hurt you real bad.
2) I was too naggy?
3) I didnt pay attention to you or have i or seem not to think of you/your feelings/what you have done for me
4) have i changed? is it my work that has affected me.

I have cried so much and i miss him badly.
Have i been mean to you?
Am i such a bad gf?
i still want to be your best friend, your lover and everything.

Forgive me ayg....

2009-02-05T11:19:00.004+08:00

An Evening at VIVO!!

2009-01-31T16:51:00.005+08:00

Chinese new year break 24-28 Jan 09

1st day:
Picnic at west coast and kite flying!!
Finally rahman and i could fly a kite. WEEE!!

2nd day:
Sunday football at Farrer Park- Kambing FC VS Fushan FC. We WIN!!

Watch 'TINMAN' with dear. :)
This time around i love Zooey. NOT the Dark sorceror!

Tin Man is a 2007 six-hour miniseries co-produced by RHI Entertainment and Sci Fi Channel original pictures that was broadcast in the United States on the Sci Fi Channel in three parts. The first part aired on December 2, and the remaining two parts airing on the following nights. It was released to DVD on March 11, 2008; the same year it was rebroadcast in the United Kingdom, Australia, and New Zealand. Starring Zooey Deschanel, Neal McDonough, Alan Cumming, Raoul Trujillo, Kathleen Robertson, and Richard Dreyfuss, the miniseries is a reimagining of the classic story The Wonderful Wizard of Oz, with science fiction and additional fantasy elements added. It focuses on the adventures of a small-town waitress named DG who is pulled into a magical realm called the O.Z., ruled by the tyrannical sorceress Azkadellia. Together with her companions Glitch, Raw, and Cain, DG journeys to uncover her lost memories, find her true parents, and foil Azkadellia's plot to trap the O.Z. in eternal darkness.

3rd day:
Visit Scorpi! Chinese New Year BBQ :)
Saw his son ( 6months old). He is so cute!! Scorpi junior.

4th day:
Bukit Batok street soccer with the JJC gang.
Met Nazri and his gf Aishah. Lovely couple.
Watch midnight movie with dear! Elegy @ picturehouse

ELEGY 禁慾

Charismatic professor DAVID KEPESH (Ben Kingsley) glories in the pursuit of adventurous female students but never lets any woman get too close. When gorgeous CONSUELA CASTILLO (Pénelope Cruz) enters his classroom, however, his protective veneer dissolves. Her raven-haired beauty both captivates and unsettles him. Even if Kepesh declares her body a perfect work of art, Consuela is more than an object of desire. She has a strong sense of herself and an emotional intensity that challenges his preconceptions. Kepesh’s need for Consuela becomes an obsession, but ultimately his jealous fantasies of betrayal drive her away. Shattered, Kepesh faces up to the ravages of time, immersing himself in work and confronting the loss of old friends. Then, two years later, Consuela comes back into his life—with an urgent, desperate request that will change everything.

5th day:
Went back to work for Chinese New year lunch buffet. The food are so delicious!
I ate a lot!
Collect Red packets!
Met Chris lovely cute wife!
Met dear and went shopping at VIVO. Finally i bought some formal wear. 1 top, 2 shirts and a skirt. Cant wait to wear them on Monday..kekekek :P
Thanks dear.. haha i suck at shopping.

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Now back to work. A lot of administrative work to do.
Running after documents. Meeting with Halim, Banker.
Stress!!
Migraine!!

Start of Class is next week:
Looking forward to meet my students. Happy studying guys!!

TATATITITUTU :P

2009-01-19T11:16:00.005+08:00

Splendid OUTING!

Yesterday was a wonderful and fun experience for Rahman and i. We want to thank Khairi for that. Thank you for letting us be part of your port folio. We feel very honoured.

At 3pm met Khairi at Changi Broadwalk.
We fly our kites and we are really bad at it..NOOB. However we surely were enjoying ourselves!
At about 4pm, photoshoot began. Shots near the beach, on the rock, near a big tree, sitting in the sea, with the 'karang guni trolley', running down the bridge and lots more. All i know, it was very windy and very very cold!!
BRRRRRRRRRRRR i cant stand it. LOL!

We ended about 730pm, had our dinner. We were famish!
Reached home about 11.45pm. SO SHAG!!

3am recieve Khairi message. Pics are up!
Rahman and i coouldnt wait any longer, on the comp and get to the net.
WOW!!! The pics is incredibly nice! Perfect!

Thanks again Khairi!!
We can never forget this splendid experience. :)

2009-01-12T14:01:00.002+08:00

The New Year ??

Work is piling up. If you know me im always stress..I can go crazy every single day! hahaha
It will be a bumpy ride for rahman and me this year..

ENDURE!!!!

Anyway our weekends were great..
Spent time with football kids and KAMBING FC... :)

I miss everybody!!!!!!!!!!
I hope they miss me too... LOL

I want to watch a movie
I want to have a delicious meal
I want to buy new clothes/shoes etc
I want to fly kite
I want to go swimming
I want to play arcade
I want Big Bears
I want to do a lot of things!!!!!!!

But $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$, Rahman and I will always have issue on that.. LOL

OUR AIM : To be financially stable

2008-12-31T04:00:00.001+08:00

I guess its time.
I cant do anything anymore.
Good night.

I will miss you.
I cant seem to make you happy and satisfy you.
I swear i wont disturb you.

It hurts me more when you call me a liar.
You just dont want to make me feel better.

I cant be like you.

2008-12-30T13:52:00.004+08:00

ITS A BOY!!! Alhamdulillah
Muhammad Dani Haritsa
( hopefully its correct spelling :P )

Hidayah and Mazlan

( Congratulation guys!! )

Sisters.. I love them so much!

Im an AUNT !! :)

2008-12-30T12:00:00.006+08:00

There are torns on every rose.

I wouldnt want any one to replace you. I treasure our relationship.
It has been wonderful. Helping one another with our studies, developing an interest in photography, managing a football team, appreciating and enjoying each other's talent and more.
I find that you are special. You can do many things that i cant. You are smart and funny. I love you of who you are.

But.. lately i cant see myself in you. I feel so little, so tiny. Im not part of you.
You dont know i am always thinking of you.. you dont know that i care about you..
What i do or say dont work on you anymore..
and you dont trust me anymore..
Each time i make a mistake, you make me feel that i should be sorry for myself that i can never learn or do things correctly..
It frightens me cause im beginning to feel that im good for nothing..
Every thing i say, anything that comes out from me.. i will know before anything happens. You will say/think its nonsense. Because i have to know the reason why you dont reply my messages. There is no urgency anymore. So i have to wait more. If i wish to go somewhere or do something special. To you its ridiculous and waste of time.
Where is me in the relationship?
Sometimes i just want to be me..

When i was fired, i realise that i can never be enough for you. What i do can never be perfect. That made it worst for me. I began to be scared of you. Its not only about football but it made me realise its everything about me. There is always something you didnt like. And you will make sure i learn but when i cant or didnt.. im looking for trouble.
What if im married to you, will you divorce me...
I never complain that i hate doing things for you..
But im scared of not doing things right..
Its a phobia to me...
Only Athi knows what happens to me when i feel useless.

I am worried about ours and your future.

You look so pale, sick and weak. You should rest. You cant have everything at one time. Trust me. You have to choose or make time for each of them.
If you want to perform well in football, i think you know what you should do.
Even for your studies, music and games....

Im not saying this because im saying you are not good for me. Why dont you take it positively.
You said before and reminded me, if i see you after my work looking so lethargic it will effect my own mood and you wouldnt want to see me when i look so tired and untidy..it wont be a happy day for us..

when i look at you i become so 'cranky'....
because i know what you are going thru now wont help you in the future..esp 2009.. its an important year for you!

Whoever reading this.. you have to take his point of view too and his feelings.
This post is just about me.

HE IS A GREAT GUY.. believe me...

Love you

Shyairah

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My HOBBY

I made this for Firul's Open house.
What do you think?
Its not complete yet.. waiting for Firul to email me photos of them :)

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Sentimental Heart Lyrics
She and Him

Cried all night 'til there was nothin' more
What use am I as a heap on the floor?
Heaving devotion but it's just no good
taking it hard just like you knew I would

O-o-old habits die hard when you got, when you got a sentimental heart
Piece of the puzzle, you're my missing part
Oh what can you do with a sentimental heart?

Cried all night 'til there was nothin' more
What use am i as a heap on the floor
Heaving devotion but it's just no good
Taking it hard just like you knew I would

O-o-old habits die hard
When you got, when you got a sentimental heart
Piece of the puzzle, I'm your missing part
Oh what can you do with a sentimental heart?
Oh what can you do with a sentimental heart?
Oh what can you do with a sentimental heart?

2008-12-18T11:03:00.004+08:00

Do i have what its takes? no i dont..

If your are wrong or at fault who would you blame.
I realise this time round.. it has been my fault.
I am the problem.

I have always wanted to have a family and to be a good wife. Well many would think its typical of women to be wanting all that. Many men would run away from this. Y?
Its the commitment and i understand its not easy for men as they will have a bigger responsibilty. Plus women are just difficult to handle. I am one of them.

I do not know what else to do. I have been trying to keep up, making sure i am doing the right thing. I failed...

and i have been failing................................................

i feel so low.. i am useless.. :(
just look at that stupid ugly face!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am CHARCAT!!!

2008-12-03T13:58:00.002+08:00

Make a Smilebox scrapbook

2008-12-03T11:39:00.004+08:00

Guess how im feeling now.

My pay is on 15 January 2009. Its like next month and im so broke now.
What can i do about it?
Just have to wait......................................................
GGRRRRGGGGRRRRR

2008-12-03T11:21:00.004+08:00

I am sick due to the heat.

What are the signs and symptoms of dehydration?

The body's initial responses to dehydration are:

thirst to increase water intake along with
decreased urine output to try to conserve water. The urine will become concentrated and more yellow in color.

As the level of water loss increases, more symptoms can become apparent. The following are further signs and symptoms of dehydration:

dry mouth
the eyes stop making tears
sweating may stop
muscle cramps
nausea and vomiting
lightheadedness (especially when standing).

The body tries to maintain cardiac output (the amount of blood that is pumped by the heart to the body); and if the amount of fluid in the intravascular space is decreased, the body has to increase the heart rate, which causes blood vessels to constrict to maintain blood pressure. This coping mechanism begins to fail as the level of dehydration increases.

With severe dehydration, confusion and weakness will occur as the brain and other body organs receive less blood. Finally, coma and organ failure will occur if the dehydration remains untreated.

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What do you want to be when you grow up?

2008-11-28T16:56:00.006+08:00

What do you want to be when you grow up?

I wanted to be a teacher. I wanted to be a singer. I wanted to be...............

In 2006, i did become a teacher. I was a preschool teacher.
Life has been great. Love and enjoy teaching. No other work is better than this.

2007-2008, I began to hate the life as a preschool teacher. I think i am good and i perform well.
I hated the management and how the centre is running. Hate it so much. I could not bear with it any longer. I have been dragging myself to work. All the efforts i have put in, its all a waste.
I love all the children and i miss them badly too. Sadly, its not my centre. How i wish it is............

November 2008
I tried something new. Its a start and a beginning for me. I hope i will do well..
The Management are friendly and helpful. They just want me to work hard and so far i am.
Ive somehow pass the first stage. Still have a long way to go... Lots of planning to do.

I am praying.... always praying...
Insyallah...

Christmas?? :P

2008-11-24T17:51:00.007+08:00

We are just pretending... ITS CHRISTMAS!!

2008-11-11T12:45:00.016+08:00

I want and should update this!! :P

Its been 4 years i have not seen my best friend and finally...... i did!!!

We had our breakfast at YAKUN...
and we went window shopping at JP with Athirah..

We decided to spend more time together..so end up we spend our time at CHANGI AIRPORT!

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Evening, Athirah,Rahman and I meet up with Firul at his place.. His sister did a western meal for us.. DELICIOUS!! Thank you again for the wonderful meal............

We enjoy ourselves at Republic Poly.. watch a Symphony Band perfomance.
I miss my school band.. :(

Ayg took a lot of pic!! I love them......... :)

2008-11-07T20:48:00.003+08:00

Maestro

Finally dear got me the right size guitar. :P
I am not that good in playing the guitar.
Dear says that i can play but i just need practice.
I hope i can be a good player.....

Thank you dear!!

2008-11-04T02:47:00.004+08:00

03/11/08

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY ATHIRAH!!! HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY FARID!!!

All the best in everything you do!!
:)

Love,
Kak Shyairah and Abg Rahman

2008-11-04T02:00:00.008+08:00

ANOTHER BRIGHT SUNDAY!!

Sunday morning, the girls were eveready for their duties.. :P

We head down to Firul's house while waiting for Akim and Huda. Akim went for another match at YISHUN. At Firul's house, we watched TV, played the guitar and rested. Firul's sister was kind enough to treat us for lunch. We actually thought of eating outside to celebrate Athirah's birthday but it was our lucky day...Firul's sister is so kind. Thank you once again!!

When Akim and Huda arrived, we had chatted awhile and had oour lunch together. Firul's sister bought fried rice, fried kway teow and fried bee hoon. They were nice and the guys ate a lot!..

After lunch we spent the rest of our day at peninsular plaza...
This part, i would like to say sorry to AKIM,HUDA,ATHIRAH and FIRUL for waiting for us at the guitar shop.. we did took a long time to look at the guitars..Didnt we? Sorry....

Dear has been wanting to get me a guitar.. since this time for real ah, i see that i could play and i want to play with dear i agreed to it. We went to MAESTRO guitar shop and it was love at first sight.. I love this adorable small guitar.. i am really in love with it...
well, i am not good at playing it yet... but i really want it. I think dear knows i like it.. We tried the rest and i wasnt fond of anything except for the adorable small guitar.... im so high rite now..LOL!!!
anyway, we didnt have enough money so we reserved it. I will be having it next 2 weeks..insyallah.

After shopping, we head down to BUGIS... eat at THONG SENG..where else rite?????
they have the best fried fish noodle (laksa noodle and must put milk! ).............. POWER!!
We head back to Akim's car...and took some pics along the way....
Another fun SUNDAY!!WEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.................

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As usual, dear and i would kind of quarrel...our ideas often clash. It will seem that our fights are unpleasent to see and i apologise for that. But you know what, i somehow love it when we quarrel..because at the end of the day.. we do comfort each other and accept the fact that our ideas do clash. The best thing..he somehow knows that i just couldnt control my emotions. So he will always tell me to calm down. After hearing that, i know he cares......... thank you dear.

I LOVE YOU... :)

2008-10-31T14:53:00.003+08:00

Memories...

I found old pics of dear.. and he is so cute.. lol
I really miss the old days..................................

Rahman, Cik Faizal (his dad), Cik Habsah ( his mother), Farid ( his brother)
Abg Fairuz and his wife Kak Ain

Dear was about 17/18 years old back then.. Now he is old!! LOL and no more HEMSEM... keke

2008-10-27T12:14:00.006+08:00

26 October 2008- Eve of DEEPAVALI celebration.. :P

Morning as usual will be our football match. ( Ill write the review after this.) After the match, hudakim, nad, shafiq, athirah and irahman had our lunch @ yishun. Then we proceed to Akim's place to keep his stuffs and team jerseys. Nad and shafiq intend to go to mustafa centre to get some toiletries and end up changing their minds to stay with us all the way. Its eve of DEEPAVALI, you can guess how bad the traffic will be.. Out of the blue, Mus had an idea of going for karaoke! Rahman heard that and he do not mind as he wants to DESTRESSED... and so everybody agreed!

And here we are @ CASH STUDIO...

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After such a Fun time singing.. all of us were hungry..
We had our dinner @ Bukit Timah.. We had wonderful time together.. Love all of you.. Happy Holiday!!

2008-10-23T02:27:00.005+08:00

Don't hold to anger, hurt or pain. They steal your energy and keep you from love.
Leo Buscaglia

I remember the times when you suffered because of me.

I did not protect you when actually, i should.
If i could turn back time, i would't brought you into my family..
I didn't even see it coming..
I trust my family but they turn their backs on me..

I believe in Fate...
As im glad to have met you and be with you..
I am holding on to you and this special relationship that we have as long as i can...
Always hoping and praying that we can begin a new life of our own...

Now it's hard..i know..
But do believe me..
I never and do not want to regret this..
I chose this path and I chose you..
You are just enough...

Patience, and preserverance are the two essentials to success. ('',)
We will do just that...
I love you Sayang...

Shyairah

2008-10-21T20:33:00.013+08:00

Great people whom i met in JJC, year 2002 and 2003......
I want to thank all you for this wonderful hari raya outing (19/10/08, Sunday)...

Selamat Hari Raya
Maaf Zahir & Batin

Asri and Shahid pick me up that morning. I was surprise to hear from Asri..has been such a long time, i have not met him... i cant recall when was the last time we met...
His face and his voice is still the same..and he is friendly.. and everyone too! :)

We picked up Rozie..and it has been 2 years... and she never change..chirpy as always! Sweet lady!!

1st visit: Lukman's House

Lukman is in light blue baju kurung.

Sara and Rozie

Asri, Hakim, Shahid, Lukman and Azhari

2nd visit: Hakim's House

Shahid and Rozie

Sara! Pretty Lady!

Shahid (Aini says he looks so handsome that day.. lol)

Azman

Hakim's mother cooked NASI LEMAK...and its delicious!!!

3rd visit: Q's House

Q is in Yellow polo T

CHEESE!!

Ilyas, Hakim and Asri

Finally, Rahman came... :)

4th visit: Ilyas's House

I remembered Ferrero Rocher!

5th visit: Shahid's House

Lots of food! Mee soto and Curry Chicken....

Aini!! She is so sweet..........

Hakim and Sara

Hani! The first person whom i talk to back then in JJC... Thank you!
I rememberd she love baking brownies....

Me and Rahman

Aini and Rozie

Afiqah (Ilyas sister..she is adorable!)

6th visit: Hani's House

Spaghetti and a special dessert
( I do not know its real name..but its like pengat pisang. Sweet and i love it!)

Last visit: Nasrin's House

Strawberry Cheesecake!! Yummy!!

This is when we were about to go home...

HOME SWEET HOME
( Ilyas sent me home..Thank you Ilyas for the ride home!)

2008-10-18T21:54:00.019+08:00

Hari Raya Open House

1st House: My mum's secondary school friends ( Hari Raya reunion )

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2nd House: Cik Wan (my mother's younger brother)

My Parents

My mother and i

Nonoi ( my elder sis)

Me lah...

Shahidah

Noi and me...
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Last house: Pak Busu (My father's younger brother)

Take 1...Pose!

Take 2...Pose!

Abg Naz and Nurul

Pakcik Zul ( Anyone interested? He is single and available..)

Pakcik Is ( ZZZZZZZZZZZ....)

Pak Busu's fish... lol

Abg Iwan family... :)

Nonoi

Nabil

Haziq

Akif

Iman

Mak dek

Pak Busu

Nabila and Shaza

Tengok kat mana tu??

HUgZzzzz

Sheila

Nadia

Yazier

Serah

Abg Naz and Sheila

Nonoi with her 6th AYAM... SEDAP!!!! LOL

We surely are in love with the background!

Gays.. :P
They are really in love...

The BOYz

Home sweet home..

2008-10-13T15:01:00.005+08:00

Confusing Names

Caller : Hello, can I speak to Annie Wan (anyone)?

Operator : Yes, you can speak to me.

Caller : No, I want to speak to Annie Wan (anyone)!

Operator : You are talking to someone! Who is this?

Caller : I'm Sam Wan (Someone). And I need to talk to Annie Wan (anyone)! It's urgent.

Operator : I know you are someone and you want to talk to anyone! But what's this urgent matter about?

Caller : Well... just tell my sister Annie Wan (anyone) that our brother Noel Wan (no one)has involved in an accident. Noel Wan (no one)got injured and now Noel Wan (no one) is being sent to the hospital. Right now, Avery Wan (everyone) is on his way to the hospital.

Operator : Look if no one was injured and no one was sent to the hospital, then the accident isn't an urgen t matter! You may find this hilarious but I don't have time for this!

Caller : You are so rude! Who are you?

Operator : I'm Saw Lee (Sorry).

Caller : Yes! You should be sorry. Now give me your name!!!

Some of the names that can be hiliarious are as follows :

Anne Chang => Dirty (Mandarin)
Anne Chin => Keep Quiet (Mandarin)
Faye Chen => Dusty (Mandarin)
Carl Cheng => Buttock (Hokkien)
Monica Cheng => Touching your buttocks (Hokkien)
Lucy Leow => You are dead (Hokkien)
Jane Tan => Frying eggs (Mandarin)
Suzie Leow => Lose till death (Hokkien)
Henry Mah => Hate your mum (Mandarin)
Corrine Tai => Poor fellow (Hokkien)
Paul Chan => Bankrupt (Mandarin)
Nelson Tan => Bird laying eggs (Mandarin)
Leslie Tong => Rubbish Bin (Mandarin)
Carmen Teng => Leg hair long (Hokkien)
Connie Mah => Call your mother (Cantonese)
Danny See => Squeeze you to death (Hokkien)
Rosie Teng => Screws and nails (Hokkien)
Pete Tsai => Nose droppings (Hokkien)
Macy Koh => Never die before (Cantonese)

Pass around for some laughter*

2008-10-12T22:35:00.010+08:00

Football here we come!!
121008 Woodlands
Score : 1-1

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Kambings i am sorry for not giving my very best today... I took some photos during the first half and i ended up sleeping.... :(

Shyairah

2008-10-12T21:39:00.011+08:00

HARI RAYA OUTING 2008 WITH THE KAMBINGS....

Lets go to Farhan's house..........

Yummy Tom Yum Rice, Fried chicken and Shark fins soup....

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Now to........... Karim's house!

We had bread with meat ( something like Kacang Pool or beef Steak goreng )...
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We had lots of time taking PHOTOS!!

Here is MARIANA & HALIF.. They are going to be engaged soon! Congrats!!

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Here we are at Huda's house.........

Curry chicken!!! POWER!!

Ezan and Faz
(GREEN)

Rahman and Shyairah
(WAK WAK)

Farhan and Athirah
(YELLOW)

Ain and Karim
(MAROON)

Huda and Akim
(RED)

Firul
(Maroon)
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Welcome to my House....

My mum cooked Fried Lontong...
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We then proceed to Ezan, Halif and lastly Rahman's house...................

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Pictures taken by FARHAN...

The end..................

2008-10-04T23:22:00.003+08:00

Updates.......

I am going to further my studies... Ive taken up Specialist Diploma in Psychology (cert awarded by Brookes University. U.K ) ..

My school is located at Beach Road ( BROOKES BUSINESS SCHOOL )..
its a 1 year programme (2009-2010) ..and after that i would be taking up a degree, majoring in Educational Psychology (2010-2011).. insyallah kalau ada kemampuan...

I will be doing it part time as i need to work and pay the school fees...
I hope that everything will go smoothly as planned...

Rahman says its a difficult course.. well i have to do it or die... :P

Anyway you will be wondering why i take up this programme...
Well, i want to enter NIE (in 2011) and be a Teacher / Counsellor / Psychologist in a school ...
To help the kids with issues / problems...
and just as long i have the opportunities to work with children and achieve more than a Pre-school Teacher....
Lastly, i am doing this for OUR future....

Wish me LUCK!!
keke...

2008-10-02T00:36:00.002+08:00

28 September 08

I am a noob not knowing anything about F1...
but now i know what is it..and i came close to it too....

It was so real. Got a glimpse of it.. It tires..their helmets..the F1's speeding..and their tires got burnt..the smell of burnt tires and finally the loudest sound ive ever heard... It is so piercing.. Luckily i had my headphones!! Phew....

Dear told me lots about F1 race... At first i thought.. F1 was lame and BORING!
but you know WHAT! It is not... well first reason, i enjoyed spending my time with dear talking about F1 and wondering around for a better view of those F1 cars....
2ndly, the experience i had that day was so interesting and fun! and i am eager, wanting and hoping to watch it live... Its the best thing that have happen to me.. I enjoy myself so much...

We had the chance to catch it live on TV @ Suntec City..
Sat down on the floor with dear..and was so into the race....

Me and Dear will surely save money to watch the F1 race next year!!!

2008-10-01T22:53:00.012+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri

Maaf Zahir dan Batin !!!!!

2008-09-13T12:50:00.001+08:00

Discover Which Simpsons Character You Are!

Lisa

You are the quiet romantic type. You dream, and play your saxophone, waiting for "the one". You truly are a lonely genius.

Not satisfied with this result? You can retake the quiz.

Jack Johnson - Good People Lyrics

2008-09-13T12:32:00.001+08:00

Jack Johnson - Good People Lyrics

Oh, you win, it's your show now
So what's it gonna be
Cause people will tune in
How many train wrecks do we need to see
Before we lose touch of
We thought this was low
Well, it's bad, getting worse so

Where'd all the good people go ?
I've been changing channels
I don't see them on the TV shows
Where'd all the good people go ?
We got heaps and heaps of what we sow

They got this and that
With a rattle a tat
Testin, 1, 2,
Man, what you gonna do
Bad news, misused
Got too much to lose
Gimme some truth
Now whose side are we on ?
Whatever you say, turn on the boobtube
I'm in the mood to obey
So lead me astray, and by the way now

Where'd all the good people go ?
I've been changing channels
I don't see them on the TV shows
Where'd all the good people go ?
We got heaps and heaps of what we sow

Sitting around, feeling far away
So far away, but I can feel the debris, Can you feel it ?
You interrupt me from a friendly conversation
To tell me how great it's all gonna be
You might notice some hesitation (Because)
It's important to you, it's not important to me
But way down by the edge of your whole reason
Let's beginning the show
And all I really wanna know is

Where'd all the good people go ?,
I've been changing channels
I don't see them on the TV shows
Where'd all the good people go ?
We got heaps and heaps of what we sow

(Where'd all the good people go ?)
They got this and that
With a rattle a tat
Testin, 1, 2,
Man, what you gonna do
Bad news, misused
Gimme some truth
You got too much to lose
(where'd all the good people go ?)
Now whose side are we on today ?
Anyway, ok whatever you say
Wrong or resolute, but in the mood to obey
Station through station
Desensitizing the nation

Where'd all the people go ?

Going, going, gone...

2008-09-13T12:07:00.007+08:00

My cute KIDDOS!! :P

Adlina's Birthday!!
11 September

I miss my FOOTBALL Kids!!!
See you guys soon... in OCTOBER!

Syafiq Syahmi

2008-09-08T16:40:00.005+08:00

090908
It is syafiq's first day being an NS men..
Wishing you all the best in everything you do..
May you finish it of well and proudly... :)
Who knows you will win an award or something..
and make your mum proud ya..

She is counting on you..Policeman! :P

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I knew shafiq when rahman was posted in NCC.. and coincidently he is staying in west side.. So that is how we got closer....
Well, its kind of weird but i do treat him like a younger brother.. He is so adorable actually..
My times spent with him was:
-I taught him for awhile during 'O'Level...Oh my he was really a slacker... Ganyut kat phone je.. lol :P and i actually gave up.. hehe ( I am so mean..)
- We recomended him to work at Carrefour plaza singapore.. and he became our roller boy.. ( Cool job but tiring...)
- Now.. Kambing FC.. where we see each other alot...

Anyway.. we had fun.. we talk alot and we share alot with each other too... He is a good listener, gentleman, friendly and a very nice guy...

HAHA i think he knows how i am and how me and rahman are.. keke..

We are going to miss you Syafiq Syahmi!!!
and to Nad.. Take good care of him ya.. :P Happy ALWAYS!!

Happy Birthday Ayg!! :P

2008-09-08T13:01:00.003+08:00

You say it's your birthday
It's my birthday too--yeah
They say it's your birthday
We're gonna have a good time
I'm glad it's your birthday
Happy birthday to you.

Yes we're going to a party party
Yes we're going to a party party
Yes we're going to a party party.

I would like you to dance--Birthday
Take a cha-cha-cha-chance-Birthday
I would like you to dance--Birthday
Dance

You say it's your birthday
Well it's my birthday too--yeah
You say it's your birthday
We're gonna have a good time
I'm glad it's your birthday
Happy birthday to you.

Birthday - The Swingle Singers

Revamp!! lol

2008-09-04T03:50:00.002+08:00

Finally... mine is done... Athirah and Rahman's too!
Well what are you waiting for...hehe
COMMENTS COMMENTS COMMENTS... keke

Anyway its 3.52am in the morning.. belum tidur lagi....
I am feeling so tired..

I need to buy baju raya... when will i be free to go geylang!! urgh...

I have not done my lesson plan for this month...have not update my theme board.. im so doom...
plus i am just so lazy... :P

FYI- Now im on the phone with dear...listening to him playing the guitar... Just lovely.. :P

Selamat Bersahur everyone!!!

It has been a while...

2008-09-02T02:59:00.003+08:00

I have been so cranky lately.... pity my dear have to take all the nonsense.
CCK FC is on break and will commence again in October..
Same goes for KAMBING FC...

Meanwhile, working and mugging at home... lol

Anyway to all my muslim friends...

SELAMAT BERPUASA!!!!!!!!!!!!

As usual... ENJOY the PICS!!

2008-09-02T00:11:00.009+08:00

Advance B'day present from Dear.. :)

Teachers' Day presents.... Thank you everyone!!!

Adlina (Tuition)

Khairunnisa ( Tuition )

Poon Chen Yu (John) N2

Boss

Prethika N2

Exchange Teachers' Day gift - Wang Lai Xin Lao Shi

Vernon Lim N2

Alvin Chuah N2

Kannan N2 and Priya PN

Darren Neo K2 and Jadon Neo PN

Sembawang Park - KAMBING FC gathering cum birthday celebration;
Aug- Dec BABIES....

22 and 27 june...

2008-06-28T23:24:00.008+08:00

27 June 08
School's excursion to the ZOO
My Babies (Nursery 2)

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22 June 08
Football @ pasiris cresc
Dinner @ Bedok

12/06/08 and 15/06/08

2008-06-18T15:37:00.007+08:00

Travis Lim Jia Ler's Birthday!!!

I love you kids..... hugs and kisses from Teacher Shy!!

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As usual football in the morning (11am)...

Dear was really tired but im impressed with him that day.. He played extremely well....

We then proceed to our friend wedding. Met Nadia, Yazier and Rahman (he is adorable!)

Rahman and Nadia

Yazier, Me and Dear

Me and Dear

Nadia and Me

Us again ('',)

After the wedding, we went to Changi Airport Terminal 3.
We had lots of fun...Thanks to everyone!

Finally home sweet home.....

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Let the pics do the talking....

2008-06-06T00:55:00.014+08:00

This is me while posting these pics... lol... i am lazy....

I miss and love everyone
PLUS I love my dear so much... he is the love of my life!!
and Thank you Nad....

What do you think?

2008-04-23T23:21:00.004+08:00

I do tutoring. I had a Primary 2 student who stays at Jurong East.
I had to undergo a day surgery and i informed her parents one week earlier. So i missed 2 lessons in total. Her mother seemed to be understanding but i was wrong....

Two days missed and i came back on Thursday to make up for my absence.. I had tution with a Primary 1 child before going to Jurong East. When i was on my way, last minute her mother messaged me that there won't be tuition as their grandfather is in the hospital. I understand their situation and i accept it.

On Saturday i went down to their place, knocking on their door and there was no respond. My prepaid was low and i had to ask a stranger for help. I called her and she answered," I am in the hospital. When there is tuition i will let you know."

I accepted her reason and there was no tuition the following week.
The week after, i called to check whether there is tuition for that week.
She did not answer my call. I called couple of times and finally her daughter pick up. " Mak, Kak Shyairah call" and her mother hang up the phone. I was shocked!
I didnt want to assume anything so i called again.
This time around, she off the phone.
I was pissed off.

I couldn't bear with her rudeness and i told the tuition agency to cancel the tuition for me. She did not give me any respect.
The tuition agency handled it for me and it went well. I just need to messaged her my bank account number to get my 7 lessons pay.
However, until today she did not transfer the money.
I tried to call her but she never picked up my call. I reminded her thru sms instead.

My first sms that she replied to:

I am short of money to pay my school fees. I hope you can transfer me the money soon. Thank you.

The first sms i received from her on 21/04/08 14:27:31 :

By 8pm u all when come 2 money u all the very good when come to tuition suka2 b4 that how u paid ur sch fee very gd service u all

( I checked my bank account the next day - she have not transfer yet )

I sms her again on 23/04/08:

(5768979898) my account no. and the amount.( i've stated the wrong amount unintentionally)

Her reply on 23/04/08 07:53:59 :

Awak islam ke kafir $52 naik ke $60! Nanti saya bawa awak ke tengah baru awak tahu sekejap2 awak ponteng saya tak peduli dengan awak punya medical problem 7 lesson pun tak sampai

( I was so sad and angry!!! I feel like slapping her face!!! )

My reply was:

It is 7 lesson as i've dated correctly. I am islam cause i mind my words. The agency counted wrongly. Its ok you just pay me $52.50 as i have asked before. Sorry for the sudden change. Thank you

She replied, 23/04/08 08:26:28 :

Oh u are islam but that sms is rom u not from ur agency what so can u pls go n settle with ur agency 4 ur info pls do not disturb me anymore with ur sms i not interested wasting my time only

My last reply for the day :

It has to be from me cause i have to type down my account number. The agency and i have settled it before hand. Do tranfer $52.50. Thank you for you co-operation.

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Until now, no reply from her...

So guys, what do you think?

Dear made me SMILE today... Thank you!!!

My SAT and SUN..

2008-04-15T22:57:00.006+08:00

On Saturday, i rushed to choa chu kang cc.. I thought i was late.. well i was but luckily i did not miss the transport.. I hate bus no. 985... so slow..

I surprised my coach.. and my coach was shocked.. " i almost call you." haha
I helped him do the head count.. and not all were there. Some could not attend.

All of us, the parents, children and the coaches took the transport and went to KALLANG, PA Stadium. We had a Children Soccer League orientation.

Guess what, Coach will send me to Coach training in June.. I will be coach certified.. can't wait..
but not easy.. i am scared actually because i will need to train more...

PRAY HARD...

My Sunday was great too.. Spending time with my dear finally...

The team had a match at Yishun. Sadly, some of the guys bubble, did not turn up. So there were only 7 of them. Poor thing.. however they manage to pull through and played their very best.
I hope this would not happen again. Its a bad image for the team. So please cooperate guys... thanks!

Dear was late for work and had to rush back to Clementi to get his uniform. He have lots of things to do.. sch assignment need to hand in, the following day before 5.30pm. I help dear as much as i can. For the very first time, i went to the library and read some sociology stuffs. You know what, after reading through and trying my best understanding them, i find it interesting.

I AM VERY HAPPY THAT HE DID IT BY 4PM, Monday!!!!

Good Job Dear...

Next... is Dear's school project and exams!!!
Good Luck and all the best sayang.....

I had a great time with you!!
After your exams.. we will really go out and enjoy each other company k??

Choa Chu Kang C.S.C

2008-04-11T00:54:00.005+08:00

Last Saturday, my coach gave a me a set of uniform..
Finally part of the committee; an asst coach; a teacher...
I am so honored, bewildered and so touched!!!
Thank you Coach and Dear ( my coach too) for supporting me!!!

Can u believe it...
T shirt size is L
Shorts is XL
haha..but i think it fits ok ok lah.. :P

Kambing FC

2008-04-10T21:10:00.002+08:00

Check out Kambing FC website..
http://www.kambing-fc.blogspot.com/

If anyone out there who are interested to be part of our team do email us at kambingfc@hotmail.com or contact Rahman at 82334465

Our team plays every Sunday, usually in the morning. Just as long if you think you can play, do join us. We love to share our skills, knowledge, experiences and we aim to learn from one another.

Anzac Cookies

2008-04-09T23:00:00.004+08:00

My Scary Face!

I made them for my secondary sch friends and my Dear Rahman.. In the end i didn't get to meet my friends so i gave them all to Dear...My Dear said its not bake properly.. Oh my... I really want an oven. I have been using the microwave oven.. I know i can't but i love to bake you see... GRRRR

Dear can buy for me an oven?? :P

Burnt... haha

For Dear.. heart and star shape.. (too big so the inside is still soft)

For my Friends.. ( sorry guys)

I should learn to cook...

2008-04-02T20:10:00.006+08:00

Mak not well and i had to cook.
I cook sawi goreng and goreng ayam.
I know its lame... but my sis said the sayur sedap...
I will start learning then..
start baking too..

i miss my ANZAC oat cookie...
i miss my m&m cookie...
i miss my honey cornflakes cookie...
i miss my pineapple fried rice...
i miss my bubur hitam..
i miss my sweet and sour fish....
i miss my banana popiah...
i miss my apple sweet corn dessert...
i miss my nutella butter cake...
i miss my heart shape chocolate..
i miss my heart n star shapes roti telor..
i miss my beef porridge..

By 21 i will learn lots of dishes.. insyallah...
and this time, harap2 sedap...

Your one and only SMILE!!!

2008-04-01T00:06:00.005+08:00

Life has its ups and down,
But our love always enlighten me,
It is you who gave me faith,
It is you who believe in me

I fall in the drain,
You rush down to save me,
I win the title Miss ShyGay,
You will bring me higher

What more do i need,
If you are already the one i love,
My best friend till eternity,
My big baby in my tummy

I want to live my life with you,
Laugh and cry with you,
Chasing you around in the house,
Biting your teeth out as hard as i can!

I love you, your teeth and your one and only smile!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

CCK C.S.C Under 12

2008-03-30T22:56:00.012+08:00

There will surely be something that can make someone smile..
For me, today was the day...
The under 12 kids had a match with the parents ( including me). They won.. 1-0
Cute isn't it? Kids Vs Parents.. lol
Even so it was deliberately, cause they are kids you see.. we have to make them win to boost their self confidence. :)

After the match, the kids and i chatted... i gave them Kit Kat..
I so love them..
We queue up to receive our trophy.
I actually feel so paiseh when receiving it from the Choa Chu Kang MP...
I'm so old already... hahaha

SEE YOU GUYS NEXT SAT!!!!

Before the match. Getting ready...

During the match...

Shaking hands with the Choa Chu Kang MP

Kit Kat and PRIZES

My coach :)

My Trophy and shoe bag.. wee!

Group Photo

Dance with me?

2008-03-30T00:51:00.005+08:00

My very first time, i watched a Hindi Musical play. I love it so much. I am impressed!
I am indeed delighted and proud of watching it..
The music and the acting..its marvelous!!
Ill give the movie 7.5/10.

If there is really one out there just like this..i would love to watch it..
I love their dancing, so smooth and gentle...
I am so in love with their beautiful costumes!! SO elegant...
I am so in love with it..
Another one that is close to this movie that i love so much too, is Devdas!!!
Devdas is a sad movie though..

Aaja Nachle (Hindi:आजा नचले English: Come Let's Dance)
A Bollywood movie released in India and in the United States on 30 November 2007. The film stars Madhuri Dixit in her first film after six years, alongside Akshaye Khanna, Konkona Sen Sharma, and Kunal Kapoor in pivotal roles.

Want to know more?
http://www.yashrajfilms.com/microsites/an/aaja_nachle.html

Aaja Nachle

(I would really want to live in a fantasy world. Being love all my life.)

ARGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH

2008-03-29T00:48:00.003+08:00

YYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!
YYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I so hate myself!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am very sorry!!!!!!!!!!!!

Strawberry and Lemon

2008-03-28T02:51:00.002+08:00

Life can be sour
Sour like lemon i would say
How can it be so sweet
Sweet like strawberry i would wish

Lady of imperfection
So in me
I beg to change
There, it comes back in

Crazy spinning in a merry go round
I despise that
Like having too much pills
Eating me up and eating my time

Wishing to sit under the stars
Always blinking and shining at me
That very night i would sleep with beautiful dreams
Cuddling my BIG BEAR and kissing it Good Night!

- Lame rite? Well only i know how it feels...

Sweet dreams everyone.......

Don't Write Me Off.....

2008-03-24T21:30:00.006+08:00

It’s never been easy for me
To find words to go along, with a melody
But this time there’s actually something, on my mind
So please forgive these few brief awkward lines

Since I’ve met you, my whole life has changed
It’s not just my furniture, you’ve rearranged
I was living in the past, but somehow you’ve brought me back
And I haven’t felt like this since before Frankie said relax

And while I know, based on my track record
I might not seem like the safest bet
All I’m asking you, is don’t write me off, just yet

For years I’ve been telling myself, the same old story
That I’m happy to live off my so called, former glories
But you’ve given me a reason, to take another chance
Now I need you, despite the fact, that you’ve killed all my plants

And though I know, I’ve already blown more chances
Than anyone should ever get
All I’m asking you, is don’t write me off, just yet
Don’t write me off just yet

ADIDAS Challenge 2008 @ SAFRA Tampines

2008-03-17T22:09:00.018+08:00

Team Spirit....

KAMBING we are proud of you!!
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They played well with great attitude and it was a team success to make it to the Finals. Congrats..
Even so you guys did not win, at least this match proves you that you guys are good players and the team can go much further. Well done..

Game 1 : 1-0 (Rahman)
Game 2 : 0-2 (loss)
Game 3 : 3-1 (Kelvin 2 & Mus 1)
Game 4 : 2-0 (Kelvin 1 & Firul 1)

Hall of Fame

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Warm up
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During the match...
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End of the day.......
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My Hero !!
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Victory......